Is it the end?

For the last couple of weeks I have been struggling with writing.  I have all of these wonderful thoughts and then when I get ready to put them on paper…poof…they’re gone!

I believe my inability to write has more to do with struggles in my personal life.  The battle to let go and move forward is the hardest thing ever.  We all have those people in our lives that make us bang our heads against the wall.  We sit back and watch as they continue to spiral out of control because you can only fix so much and the time comes to step back and watch the circus unfold.  I am there.

I am a firm believer in “Everything happens for a reason” and that if you don’t like where you are, change it! You are responsible for your own happiness.  You cannot rely on another person to make you happy.  You are the person in control of your future.  Those of you that know me are acutely aware of my brutal honesty and lack of sympathy.  I can be your most loyal friend or I can wipe the slate clean as if you never existed.  I don’t care to do the latter but if push comes to shove I will.

I’m angry, hurt, sad and disappointed.  The worse part of all of this is that it will end up being my fault and I should have talked to them and we could have worked this out.  Years of being the one to apologize and being the one to pick up the pieces and put everything back together stops today.   It’s time I put my life and my happiness first.

So with that said…..The Hubs is home.  Time to be with the love of my life.

I promise the next post will be better.

carolyn